Sunday, November 30, 2008

Do they hear you when you cry?


As the velvet night wraps its arms around the little hamlet of Siteki, high atop the emerald mountains of Swaziland, a young woman starts to cry.

Lying on a dirty blue plastic sheet outside her mud brick home. Her face pointed to a canopy of silver stars.

A steady rain of tears streaming down soft cheeks, as she remembers love...

Love that was born in fleeting looks and shy, school girl smiles. Love that opened its wings in wild laughter, a hand held tightly, a mouth kissed firmly.

Love that held her close through the forbidding night and promised a diamond dream of forever.

She remembers too, her little ones.
The four brown angels who drank life from her breast. The butterfly souls who danced her back to happiness when he hit her.

Who kept her heart beating, when Dokotelle said the words "I'm so sorry Googoo, you have AIDS."

She remembers the birth of her last child. Of the screaming pain that was soothed only by the balm of seeing those new born cheeks glowing with life.

During the birth a hole was made. "A fistula" they called it. That made waste ooze from everywhere. That made friends and neighbours flee.

And yet here, on this dying day... Surrounded as she was by her own urine and faeces. Able to feel every bone in a body that once burned with soft light.... Her tears were not for her.

They were for her children.

For who would look after them, when she was gone?

Who would kiss their forehead before they went to sleep. Who would feed them and wash them and tell them not to play too close to the fire.

As the night faded and the dawn broke a van arrived.

It was Kathleen, the kind American nurse from the Hospital near by. She knelt by her side and held her hand.

"Googoo, we will make sure your children will be taken care of." she whispered

And as she heard those words, the broken woman started to sing,

"Amazing Grace,

How sweet the sound,

That saved a wretch like me,

I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind but now I see."

Kathleen and Googoo

The day she died



HIV/AIDS has taken more lives than the sum of all wars, all natural disasters, all diseases throughout the history of humanity.

2.8 million people like Googoo die every year of this senseless disease.

You and I can make a difference.

http://www.youngheroes.org.sz/

Sponsor an AIDS orphan.

Be their hope.

With love, Maithri



Two of Googoo's Children - ages 2 and 5

(AIDS orphans)






78 Whispers of Hope:

Shimmerrings said...

Here, I struggle to pay my bills, all caught up in the western way, and with no health insurance, myself, and only a part-time job... and yet, I know nothing of true sorrow, real sickness, or extreme poverty. I must do something... somehow, someway... keep writing the stories, Maithri, never stop writing the stories.

Irving said...

There are no words to describe the power of your words, or of the love they bring through the sorrow and pain, a light shining in the darkness. I was just looking at the stars before I read your post. My brother Maithri, you and Kathleen and Googoo also are my stars tonight. May God bless the soul of Sister Googoo, and welcome her with love even greater than she gave in life. Amen.

rebecca said...

Stories like these humble me and puts things in perspective oh, so very, very quick. And here I was thinking how I would make it thru Christmas. Her babies are beautiful. My prayers are with them. Thank you for posting this, Maithri.

Pam said...

Thank you Maithri. God bless the medical profession and their tireless work. I believe a mother's love is never far away.Medicines are so important, as is love.

Ras Love Princess said...

It hurts the heart and the soul when I hear Googoo's story and yet her memory has found the way to our hearts through you and Kathleen. Thank you for sharing this reality, we must remember the people who need money, medicin, love and food more than we do in these hard times.
Thank you my dear brother

Dianne said...

I really can't add anything to the comments already so eloquently shared.

I remember seeing a segment about a nurse working with women like Googoo on Oprah's show. Was it Kathleen?

I come here to remember what is real. What is truly important.

Thank you for that.

I was struggling to decide what to post for World Aids Day. May I link to you?

Margrit said...

Oh, dear Maithri, thank you for sharing this heartwrenching story. My heart overflows with sadness, yet also with gratitude for true Earth Angels such as you and dear Kathleen, who know what to do and do it.
God bless you and all those who will grow in awareness thanks to you and try to help each in his own way and possibility to stop all the misery that is caused through Aids.
Love and hugs.
Margherita

~Babs said...

Amazing Grace,,,,also known as Kathleen.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for the reality check Maithri. I hope Googoo found peace at the end, knowing her children would be cared for. What beautiful little ones they are.Maithri and Kathleen you are angels on Earth.
My prayers are with you and those like Googoo and her children.
love
Sheila (Canada)
xo

karma lennon said...

A good reminder that no matter how crappy my days are going, somewhere there are so many people so much worse off who need my help. Thanks for getting me outside my head and outside my thoughts. Peace.

Maithri said...

Dear Shimmerings,

You inspire me my friend. Thank you for your heart of compassion.

I often say that one of my favourite phrases in the human language is "How can I help?"

To me these words are the ensign of the lover...

I have often asked myself in the last few years since my return from Swaziland... who am I to be telling these stories? I am just a young doctor... No better or worse than any other. I dont have fancy credentials or specialist training like some other docs who've been working for decades...

But then i think to myself I'm not tellin these stories so much as a doctor...but as a witness... a witness to beautiful human beings enduring unimaginable suffering...

Human beings whose grace and dignity humble me more than anything I can say...

And yet their voices are not heard... Their cries are unanswered by the rest of the world.

And so my friend I will continue to tell their stories...

Continue to talk and raise my voice for justice as long as I am able.

For my life must bear witness to the angels i have seen,

With love, Maithri

Maithri said...

Dear Brother Irving,

I cannot tell you how deeply your words touch my heart.

They bring tears to me.

This story of grace between Googoo and my dear friend Kathleen always moves me so deeply.

They are angels each in their own way... bringing light into the darkness.

Thank you dear brother for the power of your spirit and the comfort of your grace,

My deepest love to you and yours,

Maithri

Maithri said...

Dear Rebecca,

Thank you my friend for your kind words.

We all need a little perspective in this 'silly season' as it has become...

I think we need to remember the real reason we celebrate Christmas...

And open our hearts to those who are suffering...

Much love and gratitude, M

Maithri said...

Dear Pam,

"A mothers love is never far away"

I believe that my friend...

And I pray that her children are safe and well... as I pray for all the millions of beautiful orphans in this world.

Medicines certainly are important ;), but in my mind love is the whole reason for living.

My love to you, M

Maithri said...

Dear Sister Carina,

Thank you for remembering them in your heart my sister. Our brothers and sisters who have less than us...are in need of our loving care...

There's a line in a paul simon song

"And as I watch
the drops of rain
weave their weary paths
and die

I know that I
am like the
rain
There but
for the grace of
you, go I."

There but for the grace of these beautiful souls, go we...

Much love my sister,
and deep peace,

M

Maithri said...

Dear Dianne,

Thank you for your kindness.

You are most welcome to link here.

I may be wrong but I'm pretty sure Kathleen hasnt been on Oprah.

Neither has sister Maureen or Jacque or the other friends I speak of here...

We need to fix that!! ;) These are the real heroes of this world. The people we should honour and learn from.

Maybe i'll write a letter ;)

Love and light my friend, M

Maithri said...

Dearest Margherita,

I hope you know how deeply I appreciate your presence here. You are a radiant human being and I am honoured to know you.

There are 40 million people living with HIV/AIDS.

Today is world AIDS day.

I hope that we will all, try and find a way to help....and there are so many ways...

So many ways...

My deep love to you my friend, M

Maithri said...

Dear Babs,

I spoke to her on the phone just yesterday...

And she is without question, the epitome of grace.

I bow my head in thanks for the angels whom I have had the priveledge of walking beside.

With love to you,

M

Maithri said...

Dear Sheila,

Thank you gracious friend for these kind words.

There is deep suffering in the world. But there is always hope...

There is always a candle burning somewhere in every dark night.

When we focus on the light... It has a way of expanding...

and just maybe, someday... we will find it is morning again.

My deep love to you and your beloveds,

Maithri

Maithri said...

Dear Karma,

How have you been? Whats the address of your new blog??

Sending you a day full of remembrances of your own power and deep beauty my friend,

Love and peace, M

Todd said...

Maithri,
It's stories like this that put things in proper perspective. Thank you for sharing with your magical words.
Peace to you, my friend.
Todd in Santa Fe

The Dutchess said...

Just came to add a whisper of Hope.....there are no words for this pain,but you did find them.. You are a great Poet!
My prayers are with you..
Blessings

kylie said...

i dont know who was on oprah but there is a woman who runs a fistula hospital in adis ababa, ethiopia, her name is catherine hamlin
www.fistulatrust.org

Tamara said...

Dear Dr. M,

Thank you for all you do.

Love, T

Ras Love Princess said...

beautiful words Maithri, you always know what to say. Thank you so much for your latest comment on my page my brother, it warms my heart.

Much love

KarmaLennon said...

Maithri, I've been good, I guess. In recovery, doing some healing, fun stuff like that. ;) The new blog address is www.gypsygirlwanders.blogspot.com

Hope your day is going well. :)

A Cuban In London said...

Powerful words, thank you very much indeed.

Greetings from London.

FranIAm said...

Maithri-

I am here via Dianne's blog and am so moved by what I find.

What can I say that has not been said already? My heart and prayers join with you and for all whose lives are touched by this disease.

Peace,
Fran

kj said...

oh maithri, you write like the angel that you are. i work in the inner city world of 'not enough' and sometimes my heart gets sore. then i come here and push out and forward the next day.

Kookaburra said...

Dear Dr. Maithri,

There is hope in this year's twentieth anniversary of WORLD AIDS DAY. An article by JO CHANDLER, published in "The Melbourne Age" on Monday December 1, informs me that anti-apartheid veteran Barbara Hogan is South Africa's new Health Minister. Unlike her predecessor who espoused garlic and lemonade as an AIDS therapy, Barbara knows that HIV causes aids. Last week, Harvard University revealed research blaming the AIDS policies like using garlic and lemonade that evolved from that thinking under ousted president Thabo Mbeki's government for the premature deaths of 365,00 people over a five-year period.
The Harvard study has been published in the peer-reviewed "Journal of Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndromes". Mark Stirling, director of UNAIDS for regional and southern Africa, tuned in to hear Barbara Hogan give a frank talk about sexuality and AIDS on Johannesburg radio.
i am not tech savvy to provide you with a link but I guess you can Google "The Age" and search for the article.
Dr. Maithri, don't despair; positive change is just around the corner.

God bless you,
Mark.

gabrielle said...

Googoo’s story of love and pain moved me to tears. Her spirit comes so alive in the telling. Thank you for the sacred work that you do as a physician and as a poet. And thank you for raising awareness of the intergenerational suffering that comes through poverty and disease.


I am paraphrasing now. In loving, my heart may shatter into a thousand pieces, but not one piece will be lost.
(Attributed to lady Izuma, a Japanese poet of the 8th century.)

Peace and blessings

Diane said...

XOXOXOXO

And thank you... again.

Ruahines said...

Kia ora Maithri,
I arrived via Pam's place and I am sitting here rather stunned at such a powerful post. I too, feel as if it so easy to get caught up in the trials and tribulations of an easy life. My eyes are slowly opened. I am going to go hug my children.
Rangimarie,
Robb

Alexys Fairfield said...

Hi Maithri,
Stories like these break my heart. There is just so much sorrow in the world, so many people in adverse circumstances. There is also so much love in the world and the Souls that you describe never seem to lack it. One day we will all be together in love. That day is coming, but we can make it come a little sooner by offering compassion and love to all. Thank you for these words my friend.

Much love your way.

Debo Blue said...

Hi, Dianne asked us to come over. I am moved to silence and humbleness.

Salty said...

boy! I missed out a lot when I took a break from blogging...

like always your post is amazing!
Inspiring and motivating!

Makes me run into action... There's an abundance of such stories in the country where I live also. And I'm really blessed to have an exposure to these lovely people through the school where my Mum works.

It's heart wrenching but like you I too believe, WE CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE!!

get zapped said...

I am left without words. I am sad and angry that this (death from aids) is happening as I type these words. My heart goes out to Googoo's children, to all those orphaned. But, I am calmed, briefly, by the care and love given by those like Kathleen, and I hope and pray that such suffering ends sooner than later. Thank you for sharing this tender story, one told to many times...

Border Explorer said...

I'm writing with tears in my eyes. I love your blog (this is my first visit.) Thank you for visiting mine. I will be back here often.

Marcia Erickson said...

Maithri,

Thank you for the gift of connecting us to Googoo. May her story of grief in sickness and death yet at the same time triumph in love inspire and challenge us.

Blessings and love,
marcia

the psycho therapist said...

Mumchance.

There is a word that comes to us from the Middle Low German that means to be tongue-tied. Not so much that one cannot think what to say, but that the experience is so beyond words and the conditions defined by words and their reasoned order that the tongue is tied by expressing silence. It is "mumchance".

-- Terrance Keenan, in St. Nadie in Winter: Zen Encounters with Loneliness

Thank you for this gift this day. You have added to my light.

Blessings and peace.
Namaste,
Wendy

JC Nithya said...

I’ve always been a silent reader of your blog. But this time, I can’t help telling you that your words made me cry.

Inspired,
Nithya JC.

Yoli said...

You are their chronicler, their historian. I can just imagine your own pain. Thank you for always putting things in perpective. What matters in life, what is important. May you always be blessed with good health my brother.

Love,
Yoli

Crashdummie said...

I dont know what to say bro. Sometimes the sadness and reality get to much, and instead of doing something we just shut our eyes hoping it will all go away.

but it wont, will it. unless we do something about it. We owe it to ourself to try to make it a better world for us. We didnt inherit the world from our parents, we are borrowing it from out children...

thank you for reminding us.
much love to you brother.

Sorrow said...

I will.

The Karmalized Couple said...

you've touched another soul tonight with your selfless blog and potent words. thank you for writing and telling these stories that otherwise would not be passed on in such a graceful, poignant way.

Maithri said...

Dear Todd,

Thanks for your comment my friend.

Stories of Africa do put life into a new perspective dont they?

In many parts of the world HIV, poverty, and early death are incredibly common... by increasing our awareness of these issues...we empower ourselves to help.

Blessings of peace, Maithri

Maithri said...

Dear Dutchess,

A warm welcome to this humble blog.

My little words will never be enough to describe the strength and beauty of these people, and angels like Kathleen whose mere presence on this earth makes it a better place.

I look forward to visiting your blog and hope you'll be by often.

Winged peace, Maithri

Maithri said...

Dear Kyles,

Yes my friend you are very correct...

Catherine Hamlyn is an incredible woman who has worked for decades with women who've had fistulaes in ethiopia.

Her niece was one of my lecturers in international medicine.

Her book "A hospital by the river' is a must read ;)

Much love, M

Maithri said...

Dear Tamara,

Thank you my friend for your kindness to me.

In fact I do so little in comparison to so many....

Yet we continue to work to try and help in whatever ways we can... to magnify our impact...and make things better,

Blessings of light, M

Maithri said...

Dear Sister Carina,

I think the name "Love princess" suits you very well... your spirit is large and your heart soft...

Stay that way my sister,

The world needs your light,

Love's warmth, M

Maithri said...

Dear Karma,

Sendin you deep healing my sister. Your courage and beauty inspire me.

May the quiet dignity of your own spirit comfort you today,

M

Maithri said...

Dear Cuban in London,

Thank you brother for this kindness.

May you be blessed with light and deep peace today,

Maithri

Maithri said...

Dear Fran,

A warm welcome to you here,

Thank you for raising your voice for justice.

May we work together to ensure that those who are sick and suffering have the care they need.

Sending you soft wings of peace this day, Maithri

Maithri said...

Dear KJ,

Thanks for your tender words my friend.

We live in a climate of 'not enough' dont we... its never more apparent than at Christmas time when consumerism rears its head to laugh in the face of all that 'Christmas' was meant to mean.....

Perhaps its simply that we forget...

Forget to remember, how many times the hands of grace have pulled us to our feet when we have fallen.

My love to you dear friend, M

Maithri said...

Dear Mark,

Thank you my friend for sharing this information with me.

It is incredibly frustrating how much misinformation and mythology exists around HIV and the treatment thereof.

It is always heartening to read stories of hope.

Thank you for sharing this with me Mark, Its much appreciated.

Blessings of peace to you and your loved ones,

Maithri

Maithri said...

Dear Gabrielle,

Thank you for this beautiful comment. This trace of love that you have left here.

The quotation moves me deeply.

"In loving, the heart may shatter into a thousand pieces. But not one piece will be lost."

This is at the crux of what I believe. That there is something in heartbreak which is redemptive...which allows growth...

And it is this grace that the brave men, women and children of Africa teach us.

I love what you say about "intergenerational suffering". You have touched upon one of the deepest issues facing the developing world.

A whole generation is being wiped out because of HIV. This has innumerable consequences on earlier and later generations.

Whispering a prayer for you and your beloveds,

Be blessed, Maithri

Maithri said...

Dear Diane,

Love and thanks right back to you friend,

Have a beautiful day, Maithri

Maithri said...

Dear Robb,

Kia ora and thank you for your beautiful words.

I have been touched deeply by you and your wife Tara's compassion for these people.

Thank you for your presence in this world,

You inspire me,

Blessings of peace to you and the family, M

Maithri said...

Dear Alexys,

How right you are my friend,

The path to love requires that we act out of compassion and the spirit of brotherhood and sisterhood.

The world is one. This is what we need to instill in our children. Once we realise that what happens to our neigbour deeply affects us.... (even if that neighbour lives in rural africa).... then it is much more difficult to turn our backs on these beautiful people.

With love and light to you, M

Maithri said...

Dear Debo,

Welcome to this humble place.

I thank you for your words.

These gracious souls humble and inspire me more than I can say, as do the angels like kathleen who work for them...

May we work together to help in what ever small ways we can,

M

Maithri said...

Dear Jessy,

Your comment is inspiring!

"Whereever there is a human being there is an opportunity for kindness"

Action is the language of love my friend... so act so that grace will be expand on this earth...

I thank you for your tender presence here,

May you be blessed, Maithri

Maithri said...

Dear Get Zapped,

My friend call me an idealist, but I believe in the connection between human beings...

I believe that when 'your heart goes out' to these children to these souls in need...that it matters... that it changes the winds in some small barely detectable way....

But without that small change in the winds...a hurricane would appear...

This is my interpretation the 'butterfly effect'...that everything we do... matters.

Keep sending your love, Keep believing, Keep educating those around you...

Each of us can be a champion for those in need.... Each of us in our own way can make things better,

I am humbled by your love,

Maithri

Maithri said...

Dear Border Explorer,

A warm welcome to you my friend. I think your blog is absolutely beautiful!

Bright Blessings of love and light to you,

Maithri

Maithri said...

Dear Marcia,

THis is really Kathleens story my friend. I have merely borrowed it...to tell of her grace and that of this wonderful woman.

Thank you for the work you do in this world... It never fails to inspire and humble me.

Love to you peace maker,

Maithri

Maithri said...

Dear Wendy,

So good to see you around these parts. I've missed your gracious presence here.

"Mumchance" what a very cool word!

Now to use it in a sentence... ;)

Thank you for the light you bring my friend,

With love, M

Maithri said...

Dear Nithya JC,

Many thanks for your kind comment! I wish i could translate your blog into english ;) so i could read what i know must be very beautiful words...

Blessings of peace to you and yours,

M

Maithri said...

Dear Yoli,

Thank you for your tenderness to me my sister. Those of us who have seen their grace, are called to be their voice...

To speak until we can speak no more ;) of the dignity and beauty which lies within them...

Deep love to you, M

Maithri said...

Dear Sister Crash,

You are so very wise!!

This is the truth that so many miss... that the pain wont 'vanish away' unless we act...

Act as if these were our brothers and sisters...because in actual fact...they are ....

Love and blessings to you,

M

Maithri said...

Dear Sorrow,

Your words mean so much to me today....

Thank you for being a hero to these children.

Sponsorship is an incredible gift...

Honoured to call you friend,

Maithri

Maithri said...

Dear Karmalized couple,

Thank you for these beautiful words.

A warm welcome to this humble place.

There is so much that needs doing in this world when it comes to issues of HIV/poverty and disease...

It can sometimes seem overwhelming,

My message though is simple...

We only need do something....anything... whatever that lies within our power to do...

In those simple acts of kindness, lie the seeds of change,

Blessings of peace, M

Cyrus Rumi said...

Powerful images... powerful message...Thanks Maithri for bringing this truth to our attention. Stay strong...we are all with you in this struggle...

Thank you once again!

Peace and honour to brother.

Cyrus

The Dutchess said...

Dear Maithri

Thank you for visiting my garden...I agree,the world needs more beauty and places where you can feel love and safety.We live a world apart but we can make a change by the power of words..you are doing a great job..
I will be visiting you more often and I did add you to my list of 'Kindred spirits'
Thank you for being you..
Blessings

Maithri said...

Dear Brother Cyrus,

Thank you for your words of strength dear brother,

And for always believing in our connection with one another,

Deep Peace and honour to you,

M

Maithri said...

Dear Dutchess,

Thank you once again for your kindness,

We are all far more similar than we think...

I love your gentle and warm blog/garden...

May you be blessed with peace and light,

M

Kristie said...

Dear Maithri, it is so easy to feel overwhelmed and helpless when we see so many suffering and in need...but when we all join together we really can make a difference to better another person's life. We may seem like a world away but we really aren't, are we. Thank you for holding them in the light so that we may do the same.
Love and peace to you,
Kristie

Gillian said...

A client of mine today told me of the child headed families that live in South Africa, as she has just recently paid a visit there, to see the charities her employer supports...oh the sadness. And yet she also said that amidst it all, you will find the warmest, kindest souls alive on this planet.
Why do those who have so very little, always give the most???

I pray for all AIDS victims. All over the world. I will give that much more the next time the opportunity arises.

Thank you for pointing out that mothers cry tears for their children. That was a very important observation Maithri.

xoxo
I will also keep Googoo and her family in my prayers.
May she find bliss the next time around.

Maithri said...

Dear Kristie,

I am always so glad to hear from you.

Thank you for these beautiful words my friend.

What you say here is so insightful...

What i realised when I went to Swaziland is that these people are so close... just a few hours away (By plane of course) but still just a few hours away...

There is only one world,

And when we act from this understanding, then our actions gain wings... gain arms which reach across the ocean and help our brothers and sisters in need..

Bless you my friend,

In peace, Maithri

Maithri said...

Dear Gill,

I hear you my sister...

"Its those who have the least that give the most..."

So darn true!!

I think its because those who have no material possessions have only each other... and so they build a spiritual wealth...which to me is far more radiant...more beautiful than all the silver and gold we'll buy this christmas...

My deep love to you my friend,

M